I’m feeling a lot better today. Yesterday I began to panic over everything Christmas! I had presents to deliver, places to be, kids to collect, a little art to make, a blog to write… I sort of lost my cool.
Now that all of yesterdays tasks have been accomplished I feel a whole lot lighter. My shopping is complete. I gave my house a good cleaning, the crazy hours of theatre end tomorrow, it may actually be time to sit back and enjoy a little bit of the holiday.
My only worry is what could I do artistically without any semblance of a schedule? My kids will be home until the new year, we have quite a bit of traveling to do and we will be hosting guests as well.
When I woke up today that worry had gone away. Every day this year would have been a panic if I actually stopped to think about them. What has gotten me through is taking one day at a time and not thinking about it. Any time I have tried to plan ahead, eek something out ahead, anything that wasn’t absolutely present, has failed. I woke up today and reminded myself to go with the flow.
Now this would have been one of those rare mornings where I could have slept in, but no. My youngest snuck in to snuggle at 5:30am and by 6am my husband and I were officially up.
I seized the moment and sat down to paint. I cut up a bunch of 7×11″ pieces of watercolor paper. My plan was just to let the watercolor flow. I figured if I put some paint down an idea would spring from it and it did.
I began to see a face emerge.
I thought to myself “how fun” and “how free”. I love this small narrow size and I love letting watercolors roam freely as they do.
It occurred to me that I could accomplish a few of these a day. A moment here, a moment there. Plus, I was having fun which is important. This is supposed to be something I love, not a chore. If I turn it into a chore even in my last week of creating for an entire year, I will lose. I will remember burning out at Christmas and that is not the memory for me. I want FUN.
So in the upcoming days I will probably post about upcoming festivities, fun things I’m doing with family, but I also will be creating these wild head paintings. My idea is to take a big bunch of them and combine them into one large work at the end.
My true objective is to let loose and play with color. It’s my first love. It’s my true love. I figure if I focus on color and I focus on fun the next ten days will be a breeze.
Now that’s how I want to go out!