Tangerine -acrylic and charcoal on canvas
A week ago I was sharing the experience of drag-out fighting with a painting from beginning to completion. The painting here, was the exact opposite. Every line went in effortlessly and when it was done, I thought “well that was easy”.
This painting is 100% about color for me. I began by mixing my own oranges with magenta to create a hot and fiery backdrop.
Well, I guess it wasn’t completely smooth sailing. I instantly hated the blue and the flower shape which I then had to get busy changing…
Thanks to some gesso that flower began to become under control, but I did still hate that blue…my charcoal figures began to take form…
I knew I was done when all the color felt right (bye-bye blue).
For me, this painting is about high-impact energy. Things are busting and colliding and you can feel the jagged motion of my charcoal lines.
The other night, my non-painting sister went to a drink and dabble. She sent me a photo of her completed painting. They had taught her how to layer in a background and then allowed her to paint whatever she wanted into the foreground. My sister created this very soft tree. Her color palette was creams and grey and caramel colors. I instantly felt peace and quiet from her color choices.
The thought of this has stuck with me. When I look at her painting, it tells a lot about her as a person. She is a soft-neutrals kind of gal in the way she dresses, decorates and behaves.
So of course my next thought was “if my sister paints soft and calm and is those things -then what do my paintings say about me?
Chuckle, chuckle, I’m not sure I can even go there… The first word that comes to mind though is VIGOR – in a nutshell, an active strength of force. The second word – BOLD. My personality is very finite. Everything is black and white with me – I have no room or tolerance for gray areas. My final word that comes to mind is – TORMENTED. Inside I am a tangled up mess. I want to do everything and try everything yet most things are complete opposites on the spectrum. With art I am fighting with my love of realist still lives versus intuitive abstracts. ALeo creating subject matter the world might like versus what I may like. And I guess feeling strong and feeling week and vulnerable all at the same time.
It is an interesting thought. Art can be very loaded and very much give you insight into someone’s soul.
Luckily I live in a world where the soft and the bold can actually be born from the same mother. There is room for both to coexist beautifully. A world where we can learn and prosper from both.
And yet I must embrace who I am. No apologies. I was given my own very specific genetic make-up. I have learned to love what I am and make peace with that which I am not. Will this show in my work? Does this show in my work? Is that the true artistic path -to use your strengths to their best abilities? It leaves no room for comparing yourself to others or what’s trending in your industry. You must silence it all and go within.
This is where I’ve been trying to hang out lately. I believe it is the path to tapping into THE CREATIVE FORCE. Embrace. Go within. -and see what comes out.